我怎麽不懂你多寂寞, 残忍的犯了错 - 曹格

When Jerry sang that song last night (or rather super early in the AM today), I kinda wanna cry but I didn't cos' he kept laughing. (Totally spoiling the song. Haha)

Anyway yesterday was a great night.

Before I met Fyn @ Aljunied, I went to walk alone at Raffles City for a while.
Vonx was sms-ing me along the way. Thanks Vonny~. Muacks.

One word of warning.
Never try Cedele Bakery Pot @ Raffles City, basement.
I tried it once with Vonx, the food sucked.
I tired it once more yesterday, the food sucked.

Mushroom Quiche

Maybe that Mushroom Quiche is manageable but that Ice Green Tea Mocha is horrible. I hardly manage to let the first glup slide down my throat. It is something about that green tea powder that is not blendable with the very weak mocha that made me shuddered. I thought I would throw up somewhere in the Disney show.

It was a light drizzle when I went over to Aljunied to find Fyn & Benson. Sweet O' Benson being by far, the best boyfriend I know fetched both of us to Singapore Indoor Stadium and then waited at Kallang Leisure Park for a hour and a half plus before fetching us back.
To add on,he even bought us both a cup of hot chocolate from Starbucks & surprised usFyn by patiently waiting outside the stadium.
A guy like Benson sure set the benchmark of a VERY good boyfriend VERY,VERY HIGH.

I felt like a kid all over again watching this kinda show. But it is my virgin visit to Singapore Indoor Stadium and absolutely my virgin Disney kinda show.
It made me miss Disneyland all over again.

Thank you my darling for accompanying me to the show.

It is rather sweet, funny and very Disney fairytales (Oh, and very short). Only thing I hadn't expect that is the last fairytale is Beauty & the Beast. I had thought it gonna be Snow White, Cinderella & Sleeping Beauty.

The whole Disney production made me feel like a small girl once more. I guess most girls would grow up dreaming meeting their Prince Charming one day, doing the Waltz dance and live happily ever after.
Whatever happened to happily ever after? No one mentioned about the things that could go wrong in between and how many possible happily ever afters are there in reality?

Sure there were alot of kids around. More girls than boys and some of them were dressed in Princesses costumes.
So many rich kids nowadays. So many.

I proceeded to meet Irene @ Vivo after the show.
We watched Beverly Hills, Chihuahua. It was the kinda show I wouldn't have watch but I kinda like it after watching. Just cute.
It sure made me wanna have a dog all over again. I just wondered what could my parents do (even though they wouldn't allow) if I come home with a puppy? What can they do?

I somewhat had expected Irene would be the type that go to a club/pub when she meant CHILL after movie session. Haha. Thank God I wasn't underdressed this time round.

I dunno where the heck I'm looking at.

The coincidence was we were both in toga tops! Black and white go lalala in St James~
We hit Broilers and danced for a while before the broken hearted (karma!) Jerry joined us.

Almost balding Jerry at the background, totally spoiling the photo.


Take 2. I haven't drank alot but my reddish eyes spoilt it all. I have been wearing the lens for too long.

Broilers' songs are not exactly dance floor song materials. We left very quickly and proceeded to the KTV pubs.

Found Irene's (stolen) reindeer in Jerry's car. Hehehe.

Initially I felt a lil' weird to be in the company of Jerry & Irene @ the same time. I felt a lil' odd.
He didn't really talk to me(He talked to me via Irene, like passing messages) and actually I am not very keen to talk to him either.
I haven't got very good impression of this guy and it worsened alot on 2nd meeting that night at Dbl O.
But how he is like is actually none of my business. I guess there are certain triats I found up I like about him on this 3rd meeting.

Like how romantic & sweet he can get for a girl he really likes touches me. I like romantic guys.
Like how he mentioned he really wanna sing his own songs for the bride on his wedding day, I like and is something I have been dreaming of.
(But reality check, how can he actually settles down would amaze all of us.It really amused me how a guy like him would actually yearn for marriage. Maybe he just yearn for the romances of it, like me. But I definitely know a marraige is more than just romance.)
Like how dependable he is as a friend for Irene, I like. At least I am glad that Irene has a dependable friend in office.
Umm..nothing else. Oh,physically wise..I do like his dimples alot. I think it is a blessing to have dimples on your face.
It is a secondary school girl thing about liking guys with dimples.

So that self proclaimed 曹格no 2 sang the songs and I thought I like Jason singing better? Plus he didn't really sing. He just have to break into laughter each time when he tries to look at me and sing. I guess I was too fugly for him to look at and concentrate.
Whatever~

Happiness in the early dawn.

But when Jerry really did manage to hold his eyes on me during the last long series of love songs, I felt very paiseh all the sudden. Very, very paiseh. Ok, let's face it. I don't have what it takes to...erm...whatever.

Reached home at 4.45am. Quiety took at quick bath and slept at 5am. Suddenly all the vodka and chivas mixture makes me drowsy and nice to sleep. I realised my body was very tired.


Let's see what other pictures I have got here.

YUMMMY!

I bought this at KL and finally took a few pieces yesterday.

I tell you, it is by far my favourite digestive biscuits! Marks & Spencers' ones has no fight for this! So I am hereby making a request to those who read this blog.

IF you ever see this DARK CHOCOLATE CADBURY digestive biscuits, PLEASEEE~~~~~ buy it for me!

Met Irene on Wednesday evening after work for dinner.

Our baked pastas @ Coffee Club, Raffles City

Organic teabags @ Marks & Spencers, going for $ 4.90 - $5.90 only!

I just feel happy. Despite all the not so happy moods & tears I have for my own relationship, I feel happy & blessed to have friends.

See, I am really not resentful or blaming Jason for anything now. I somewhat really, really wanna find the courage to search for something that I thought is missing.
I really do not know how to talk to Jason now, what to talk about. I thought I pretty much sum up what I want in my previous blog entry but how to talk. I don't even know what I would really want.

I want a second chance.
A second chance to experience love, real love between 2 persons this time round. Can it be done again with the same old person or would it be a different person now?
You see, the length of a relationship doesn't depict anything...So I learned.

You know the 曹格's Superwoman song? I don't even know if the guy deserves a forgiven chance? Cos if I were the lady in the song, I would feel weary. I am pretty sure that in the song, the lady must have withstand all of the things not just once or twice but for fnumerous times that she decided to leave.

I would leave. That is if I were the lady in the song. No amount of Superwoman or Superman songs that he sang would touch me.
Sometimes second chance is not given to the same old person. Someone else deserves that.

What am I trying to say? I am actually too tired to think anything now.

Good old' Sunday. Tomorrow's boo boooooo day!